Everyone experiences many emotions throughout whatever they do. I have found that in my short footballing career so far there have been many great moments but there have also been some lows.
Success is different in everyone’s eyes. To me, success is knowing that I have given all I have towards my dream and know that there is nothing more I could do. Times, where I have felt proud in myself and achieved a milestone, was signing my first contract at the Newcastle Jets or signing for Millwall Lions Football Club. Be proud of all the little things you achieve, and be grateful for everything else.
The feeling of being turned down is never a good feeling and when I have experienced it, I went through stages of questioning was I cut out for what I was trying to achieve. When I left home in July 2017, I always knew that this was going to be a tough journey, but telling myself that I never really knew what I was getting myself into.
The first time I had experienced this type of disappointment was when I first arrived in England trialing with Premier League side Watford FC. I was told I was going to be trailing for one week, then got extended to three, only to get to the last day of my trial and be told I didn’t make the cut. All I can remember is feeling upset, angry, frustrated, because it was the first no I had experience on my own, and very quickly I was learning that this is what football is going to be like no matter where you go.
Appreciate the Little Things
Appreciate what you have and not what you don’t have. I am to blame for always wanting more, something better, but knowing that things take time. What I have experienced in my last year and half of football overseas is nothing short of the best adventure I could have asked for. At times, of course, I have lost sight of what I am trying to achieve and get too far ahead of myself, but understanding that what I have done, I should be proud in and use that as the drive to now keep on chasing football here in Sweden.
Never Give Up
Your mind can always play tricks on you. Your mind always questioning are you cut out for this or are you good enough, it happens to the best of us, but that is normal. Rejection hurt, but it is what you do afterward is what is going to define who you are. I admire in Rocky Balboa when Sylvester Stallon says, “It ain’t about how hard you can hit it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done.”
Sure people may not believe in you and say you aren’t good enough, but what people think is up to them because at the end of the day if you really believe in yourself, you will prove them wrong and keep chasing your goals and dreams.
Highs and lows are a part of life and I have learned that very quickly of being a professional footballer. It is something that comes and goes and has many things which can influence it, but I also know, and it is easier said than done, but the most successful people fail more often than not, but that’s what makes them successful.